So, I recently got a new flatmate. Hurrah, one would think, given the months of solitary confinement. Except for one thing, the gent who moved in is from Kerala in India, and from a very poor family. So poor that the other people from Kerala with whom I work, and who earn very little, say he’s from a poor family.
Straight from the caste system, he moved in and started calling me “sir” and “sahib” and cleaning up after me. I had to ask him to stop, but it’s still happening (not so much sirring, but plenty of cleaning). On top of that, I get paid about ten times what he does, so I feel guilty about that too. I came here to make some money, and I think about quitting and going somewhere else everyday, so now I feel guilty about the only thing that is keeping me here. While I really hate cleaning, and am a very lazy person, I don’t want somebody else feeling like they have to do it for me.
Then, on top of all that liberal sentiment, there’s that hint of classism. I’m not sure about this, since the whole situation is one that was forced on both of us. We were simply told, “he’s living here” (the company owns the apartment), so no choice for either of us. Perhaps I resent the situation, of having no control over my living arrangements, and have been cold and distant because of that. Perhaps, I’m a classist, and resent my flatmate for being poor. Perhaps it’s racism. It’s probably a little bit of everything, but I think a large part of it is simply because we just don’t know anything about each other (and I’m generally a bit of a prick).
I’m afraid of becoming inured to the awful disparity between the rich and poor here. It is so much more marked than anywhere else I have been. And, at times, seems to be a casual racism, since it is always the people who come to Kuwait to work from India, Pakistan, Thailand, and other eastern lands who earn the least, and do the worst jobs.
The experience of living here is a constant pull of moral forces, forcing you to question your actions at all times (the existentialists’ paradise)….I’m still thinking about this one.
Wait, that was all supposed to be ironic somehow.